Going back?

I have a wish in mind but will it come true? I already have did the first step on myself but hopefully 1 day it will.

1. I wont want to take photography seriously but spend my time with Angel - Me
2. The Angel i know who does not do modeling any more - Angel (ACHIEVED)
3. The Angel who will not work any more in MMC but instead organizing photoshoots. Reason why i say that because she spends more on cab fare but not getting paid to herself but to her mum. I see no point. - Angel
4. If worst come to worst ill work together with MMC just to see her and spend my time together. I wont mind getting low pay just to see her.

I dont want to breakdown. I really love her. How can i put myself back like last time just to be happy with her instead of killing the happyness? *Muacks*