So, how do you really define yourself as useless or helpless?
This evening after booking out from camp i headed down to Orchard road to fetch my Angel and while on the way to her work place thru the underpass i saw this granny who is selling some second hand items and approaching those by-passer to take look at them.
After walking pass her for 20 steps i walked back and gave her some cash which is enough for her dinner. I know Singapore is a tough place to live especially living standards start to rise everywhere.
After doing a good deed i feel much better after that and continue my walk to my angel's work place and decided to get her some supper to eat as im afraid that she is hungry after a long day at work.
So was considering to get her sushi but didn't know if she eats raw fish so went to her store and asked her. After knowing what to get for her, i walked down to marketplace's and the sushi section was close and i decided to get her a Curry Puff and a mineral water instead.
I stood outside angel's workplace for 1 hour plus doing nothing. But its still worth the price to pay to fetch my angel back home. Her work ended and we started to walk down to the nearest station and while walking i saw the old lady still trying to sell her stuffs and i crunch my left fist telling myself she is trying so hard to fight for her surviver for her bread and butter & im the one who is spending a fair amount on gadgets to please myself. Where do i stand? Im not sure.
After reaching City Hall there was an argument in between us and i shouldnt have brought it up because it made her broke down totally. Angel, no matter who you are ill stand-by you and wont let you fail. Let me help you carry your burden you have. Seeing your crumble makes me heartaches. I tried my best to get my angel to start flying again but she didnt. Am i the useless one who cant get you flying again?
The wish i want to make for my 5th Month Anniversary is "Let my Angel stand strong even after failing". Angel, i love you. Let this nightmare go and lean on my shoulder. Im willing to carry your pain you are having now.
- Angel's Devil
